The undercutting of your assurance can steal the breath from your lungs. Terrible thoughts can plague your mind like a migraine that won’t go away. The guilt mounts; the pressure builds; Satan is whispering lies and telling you that you have never truly believed in Jesus; your faith feels like a twig in a hurricane. During these dark times a tempting thought to think is, “Why would God save a weak person like me?” Even though God knows everything, your weak faith must be a surprise to him. It may feel that you are giving God more than he bargained for at salvation. You think that there is nothing in you that would attract God’s salvation.
Here’s the thing: you’re right.
The church is made up of unimpressive vessels who are conduits of foreign power. Your twig like faith is not very impressive, but if your twig like faith is rooted in the rock of ages, you will endure the storm. But why? Why would God sustain a person who seeks to believe in Him, but yet constantly doubts?
The reason God sustains and saves unimpressive Christian doubters is because He has been planning to do so before the world began. God has elected you. He has chosen to save you. And the most glorious thing about God’s election of weak people like you is that it was not based on your strong faith, your stellar religious resume, or your ability to think positively when things go awry. Election is based on God’s happy delight in saving people, not on your checklist of strong spiritual moments. God has already told you this in Ephesians 1:4-5 when he says, “…in love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will...” When considering who to save, God did not consider your unbelieving bouts, but rather his sovereign, smiling purpose to show his grace to an undeserving sinner.
So, the next time the tide swells and you’re barely treading water, know that you will not sink. God has been planning to set his love on you for ten billion years and more – he will sustain you. When the wounds of your doubts cut deep, let his divine election is be a healing balm. Meditate on the truth of God’s unconditional choice of you. When you are faithless, he remains faithful. He cannot deny Himself. Neither death, nor life, nor doubt, or anything in creation can separate you from the love of Christ.